Some soul sludge got stirred up for me at the Pisces New Moon - Eclipse and I've felt deep in it since then. It was a direct hit to my 29 degree Chiron, the wounded healer.
I'm reeling from a full energetic unveiling of the wounds that don't heal, the ones that are entwined with things like identity and self-value. I've seen the theme of hurt lately, that often comes with profound growth....so if you're experiencing that, you're not alone.
And in it, there does seem to be a choice, though I've had raw moments that aren't pretty or 'enlightened.'
I don't have time today to say more, but wanted to put out this message, in case you're feeling like someone dropped you in the deep end, weighted with stones. I've been here before, with intensity-hurt (shadow) waves, but it feels perhaps more connected to the bigger drama and suffering of all life (Pisces).
This article from Zen Gardner -- A Time of Revelation -- made me feel less alone with it.
"We are being empowered by the mightiest force in the Universe. The Universe itself. We can steer through this madness with calmness of heart and soul and a determined mind, or let it disturb us and send us into lower level thinking and vibration."